1 Year, 4mos and etc., Later

A bit over a year ago, I started this… sharing.  I’d like to continue it now.

Enjoy

Dark Way To Start

I signed up for this wordpress account months ago, yet today will be the first day that I post anything.

It’s very overcast, yet bright, outside; there’s enough light coming through the windows that I don’t have to turn on any lamps.

That’s the way I feel right now; my outside circumstances… who am I kidding I’m not a writer… I can’t do this sh-t.  I only even considered blogging because I was increasingly seeing ads and other info on making money by blogging.  the only reason I ‘picked up the pen’ only just now is because I was near tears and tried to think what a peppy preppy 20 something person would do (I’m 36).  And not that I want to be 20 something, hell you couldn’t pay me a billion to go through that again.  The reasons I don’t want to attempt this writing thing:

1) I’m going along just fine, until I hear the sound of my thoughts:

Then the questions creep and whispers nag; “are you making sense”, “do you sound lost and…” people aren’t going to get anything from this”, “what the hell is blogging”, “if you want to help someone, go feed the homeless at the shelter” etc etc etc.

And these all pop up in a matter of seconds.

I am more of a “I can show you better than I can tell you” person.  I would rather have a stable, semi-quite but creative job, somewhere in a little cubicle, but with more than occassional opportunities to leave the office to run super necessary errands. PERECT.  

Well, that’s my ideal job HALF of the time.  The other half; travel, create, share, teach, love, eat, travel, learn, love, LEARN, travel, teach, create, CREATE.. CREATE ..SHARE ..EAT …LOVE… LEARN ..LOVE and Make LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of MONEY.  And THAT’S the Truth!

Talk about the Queen of Between.

I do feel better… I think I’ll watch some Youtube; old 80’s commercials.